Ok, love and joy have become so much a way of life! everyday is joy~ Praise the LORD for my joy comes from seeking first HIS kingdom!

This chapter has closed. It took a long time to have strength to make the decision to close it but I have gained much and lost nothing, for the love and peace of the LORD prevails strongly in my heart. I know I have made the right decision. BUt it wasn't easy. It was hurtful and painful to end this relationship. And yet right now, HE has calmed the storms in my heart and put the tempests to rest. My heavenly father in all his greatness has bestowed upon me the greatest gift of all. The gift of love. Not just to be loved, but the joy of giving it. Even though the relationship had its tough times, there were many joyous moments amidst the tears. And through it all, I loved the man to the best I could in GOD's love. Love from the world is selfish but love from GOD is selfless. And I am not selfless. I have made some selfish decisions in this relationship, I have sinned against HIM when I cast HIM out at moments. But in all HIS graces, he has forgiven me and drawn me closer. HE taught me to love through James, taught me the meaning of family and made me realise how much i desired a full reconciliation with my family. Throughout all this, HE has been my rock and my foundation and my only mistakes in this relationship were the moments where I lost sight of HIM. The relationship was founded upon the LORD, but soon grew to fuel the selfish desires of 2 individuals, pulling us further away from HIM and yet Satan deceived me, making me think that I was right. Satan convinced me that worldly love could overcome all things but through all this, GOD has taught me one thing. HIS love is the greatest and only a man who truly loves in HIM will understand the greatness of this gift.

I had a revelation today, realising that I'm not as ready as I believed myself to be for the relationship. Love is selfless. Like the love JESUS showed us when HE died on that cross. It knows to be patient and gentle. But I haven't always been, I've lost my temper, flared up and lost control of my tongue. Selfless love honours GOD and I have failed but I'm not perfect and thank GOD that HE is teaching me to change. Molding my heart that I may be a woman of undividedness for HIM.I thank GOD I'm HIS princess despite all my flaws. And today I made a decision to rededicate back to the LORD what has always belonged to HIM, my heart. And until the day that the LORD so chooses to bring me a man to walk corporately with me in glorifying HIM, I will wait. I will sit at HIS feet and bask in HIS graces. Until the day that I become a testimony to the statement that "GOD is my sovereignty, JESUS is all I need," I will make no rash decisions.

For the LORD so loves me and HIS love is all I need.

Words aren't always coherent, but HIS love is.

Life isn't always perfect, but is made perfect in HIS plan.

Things don't always go the way we expect, but we know HE is there.

In all things, HE is unfailing and steadfast. HE is love.

love..one of life's greatest lessons

Another year's gone by in a whirlwind of lessons. The greatest of these being love..

The unspeakable joy of learning to love and the discovery that loving is far greater than being loved.

Loving the man in my life
Love is not just a rush of emotion, of feelings, of attraction. It is a steady stream of hope, brought by the recognition of one soul's counterpart in another, a rational choice to commit to loving the same person, day in day out. To begin to open my vulnerabilities to someone and letting him into my innermost feelings, the raw and unmasked person that I am simply hasn't been an easy thing. And yet I realised that when I eventually did, he still made that rational choice to love and appreciate me as I am.
I've learnt that loving my partner is to choose to love him not just in joy and happiness, but in all anger and frustration; to work towards discovering more about each other everyday and reveling in the wonder of it all; to realise a flaw and to accept, to spot goodness in character and treasure; to be quick to encourage him, but slow to judge and blame; to find amidst the tears, a stronger understanding built and to find amidst the laughter, the smile in his eyes; to learn that I chose to love him as he is and don't want to force any intentional change. And I'm still learning.

Learning to rebuild bridges of love
Loving those closest to you is never easy. It tends to be the hardest. Family. You're obliged to love them in some way. Kinship is something you can never run from. The line between "I love you" & "I hate you" is so fine. And yet deep down inside, I know I do love them. Those closest hurt me most because they mean the most and I realised how much family meant to me. And in this last year, I learnt what it means to love my family out of a true willingness. And I'm still learning. Perhaps the longing was borne of seeing the closeness of some and desiring the same. But I'm thankful I've learnt and thankful for the bridges that have been rebuilt.

Thriving on the lessons of love taught by friends
Being alone away from home is never easy. And it's all the harder now that family means so much more.

Each one of us met for a reason, each one of us has a story to share, and when we come together as friends, we begin to weave our lives into a common chapter, a tapestry of ideas, woven together by a group of people, each unique in their own way. And somewhere in this web, we discover friendship love, the kind of love that bonds us together by choice not by obligation, the kind that holds us together in hard times and sends us running to the aids of one another even if we haven't spoken in a while. Friendship is a chosen love, a bond that one chooses to forge and so we call them our chosen sisters and brothers.

And so to each one of my chosen brothers and sisters, I want all of you to know how special you are to me. Thank you.

It's been a long time here. And joy is now a permanent resident in my life thanks to Daddy GOD and the man he has wonderfully blessed me with.

My my.. it's certainly been a while. Thank you for the reminder Sam.

Well, life is just great. How could it not be with the best love in the world from daddy God? He's answered prayers and mum's coming to church. I can't wait to see how her life will be changed!

And J, he's just such a dear, bringing me such joy. Cooking me egg porridge when I'm ill and driving my siblings. It's all the little things you do I appreciate. But even without them, I'll still love you!

Life in the newsroom is as dynamic as ever. Enjoyable yet draining. Tiring yet fufilling. Stressful yet thought provoking.. I just love it!

LORD, with you in my life, joy is everyday!
Dear, with you in my life, blessed i am everyday!